Entry #14

Stefanie Neukirch, foreground


AN INSIDER’S EXPERIENCE OF MR. SLEEPY:
THE DAY IT ALL TURNED EVIL

Just like the summer sky suddenly turning grey and threatening (THREAT=THE ART=THEATRE), so this play once about lonely airplanes, suddenly drops its curtains to reveal a shade of red that human eyes have never seen before.
Schachspiel. Lonely players have deserted and an empty table was left behind. A game. Predestined. Condena eterna. Children might cry out:
- But there were no guidelines!
This is true. Like Christians without Bibles. Plain unfair. (“Life is unfair”). The sin of ignorance. The sin of impulse. That or its opposite: self-flagellation, punishment, yes punishment,
-but where did we go astray? , asks the human sheep.

WRONG AGAIN, SWEETIE. Ah, it’s set up that way. The System. (Brava! Or: Just take your cocaine) Not knowing turns us into blind mice who run against paper coated walls of meaning – it’s all such a joke! (Cheese!) (Who are we entertaining?) All part of an experiment. Steinbeck said: Of Mice and Men. Foreman, I suggest, says: Of Mice in Men. Like playing dolls. Like building a house out of wooden sticks. When the truth is: We are being experimented with! Scientific research. “Where are the Barbarians of the 20th century?”, asks Nietzsche. Where are the Mice of the 21st century? We are the Mice of the 21st century. Gottlos.
I feel sympathy for them left-behind mice. Them blind worms (PROPHECY) who intertwine with each other, helpless, in great pain, with no space (subway), no air (ambulance), no hope – frantic worms knotted with each other and kept in deep chasmic containers: all will be thrown into a big frying pan once sold, and they shall burn in hot oil. The unworsenable void?
(But do them worms suffer? Or is that only the assumption of the beholder? The feeling of no feeling, that deep feeling. Perhaps they are even ignorant of the fact that they will fry shortly! And so they might masturbate to pass the time, or engage in orgies before the Unavoidable Appointment) IGNORANCE.

This is not the world. Alice in Nightmareland. BE ALARMED. Better pass the time looking for clues God must have left somewhere before He died (Haensel und Gretel verliefen sich im Wald…) Looking in hiding places. Looking with anguish

as if this was our Ueberneed.
Tic tac.
Solve the riddle
before he whom we entertain
solves it for us.

Ach wie grau, ach wie grau
grauer Himmel
graue Kuehe
hinterm Kirschenbaum.


Stefanie Neukirch (actor)